DESPERATION #poetry by jay

Desperation is the energy you choose

to live your life to its near-fullest

I see right through the bullshit 

lies you tell yourself everyday

when the moment to turn inward 

becomes a knife stabbing at you, 

slashing your throat,

I see you reach for the only play-book 

you carry, a formula you crafted years ago, 

a formula of desperation, reaching outward 

for recognition, validation, 

it begs at you to release it. 

What seethes in you, bites you and 

you deflate into a plastic bag, 

flaccid, loose, flapping, 

pleading for attention

to be seen, to be heard, to be filled, 

to be loved, ugh! 

It’s diseasing your mind! 

Infest your heart with courage 

to reach beyond the baggage, 

load-up on silence

and release into the wind! 

Fill-up with a heart full and solid 

in courage, to see 

beyond the formula you crafted 

of desperation and disparage.

©Jay Mora-Shihadeh

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