being speechless sneaks up on me,
truth is, when it does, it feels new
as though i’ve never encountered
this feeling before
that big ball sitting in my chest
has been here before
and if i were honest, it is familiar,
however, what is really irking me
is the inability to string any semblance
of phrases, words, or ideas
into a coherent, meaningful sentence that sparks
any merit and appeals to my sense of well-being,
that’s what truly confounds me
and as I sit with it, wondering where this feeling came from,
i remember i’m in mourning, gestation, hibernation, contemplation
waiting around for that, minute-hour-day,
my chest clears and my mind becomes lighter,
waiting for the hours to pass more quickly,
in anticipation, instead of dread,
instead of time standing still,
waiting to feel the excitement
of the sun rising,
and the moon setting, and the horizon
calling my spirit to run towards it, you know,
that ever-moving, never-resting line,
that calls a wander-lusting soul to journey
forward, toward it,
in search of new and exciting terrains
instead i sit with it, i fight with it,
i lash out at it
goddamnit, when will I ever learn
©Jay Mora-Shihadeh
Photo by Edu Lauton on Unsplash
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I love the way the words flow in this poem; the pent-up frustration and feeling of speechlessness make the release of emotion very satisfying in the end!
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Thank you, Jaya!
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I love the flow your words have, Jay. ❤
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thank you, Lauren.
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A wonderful piece and I’ve been there. What does it take to get up on our feet and out there when knowing what we need isn’t enough?
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Thank you, Diana. Yes, that is so true at times.
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Whoooaaaa 😮 What a superb and layered write!!! Carrying a heavy emotional charge too!👏👏👏
I felt that!🙏
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Thank you, yes, I was feeling it!
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Take care.🙏
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I feel this.
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So relatable. 💙
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